Bad Habits.

As you may have noticed, I have not posted a blog in quite some time. I have been struggling, pretty bad. I have been between 237lbs-240lbs for 6 weeks. At first I thought it was just a stall...and that stall would not go away, and I have been going back to bad habits.

By bad habits, I mean eating fast food (a small breakfast burrito from McDonald's or a wrap with dressing), coffee every day (not just black coffee with a simple creamer and no calorie sweetener, I mean a large 711 vanilla coffee from the machine, eating wayyyy too many carbs, not enough protein, and not tracking. I even had my first alcoholic drink--a shot of rum.

I feel like I do not have the motivation. I know it's still early in my "honeymoon phase," but I am STUCK.

When I saw my doctor the week after Thanksgiving, he said my weight was okay as long as I am still loosing (even thought I'd only lost 12lbs since the last time I saw him two months prior, and was stuck at that weight for weeks)--but I go back and see him in 6 more weeks, and I'm afraid I will still be the same weight!!!!

I really need to write out a menu for the next week, and start tracking again, but I am lazy, and unmotivated.

My foot is still messed up, I have a spur. I have not been exercising.

ARRRGGGGHHHH!

Still the same.

I feel myself still struggling. I feel like I'm failing. I haven't been exercising, I'm so afraid of messing my foot up more (I finally see the doctor about my foot next Thursday), and I don't want to injure it before we take a "mini-vacation" in four days to Vegas.

This will be the first time I will be away from home, having to eat all my meals outside of the home. I'm so scared I will trail off (further than I am right now).

I'm thinking of doing my pre-op diet for a week when we get back. I need to clear out my kitchen of all the sweets and high carb snacks, not to mention I need to drink more liquids.

I guess I can't really be mad at anyone but myself right now. I haven't been making the best choices.

I did it!

I finally got below 240lbs! I weighed in at 238.8 this morning!

I was so afraid I would have gained weight because I ate too much Halloween candy...guess all the walking paid off!